Title: Confessions of a Wild Heart
Author: Kade Boehme
My Rating: A
Genre: Contemporary Romance (m/m)
Main Characters: Ase and Jase
Release Date: July 2015
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Sexual Intensity: hot
Jase was never able to live up to his parent’s expectations like his brother was. He didn’t stay and work the family ranch, or marry. He saw the world. His return from serving in the Army changed nothing, he wanted to be free to live his own life. But the death of his father and his mother’s failing health force him to come home, hide his bisexuality, and live a life in the closet as a local Sheriff Deputy so he can take care of his family. This was to be his life… Until Ase returns.
After his family caught Ase and Jase together, Ase worked hard at getting the heat off himself. His occasional thoughts of Jase and their amazing weekend dwindle as life and family take the forefront and fear drives Ase to make huge mistakes.
When Ase and Jase come face to face again, it isn’t easy. Insecurities, and a hurt that have only grown with time make it hard to see the future.Can their friendship blossom into something more? With Ase’s wild side reappearing from the shadows and major trust issues, can he and Jase, with huge obstacles of his own, learn to forgive, move on, and find a peace they both so desperately want… together?
Includes a Stetson wearing deputy living in a glass closet and a toppy bad boy with a lot of drama—and a love of women's clothing—who together just may learn to stop dancing alone.
How can you tell when a book is good? When you finish it and you have tears in your eyes and a smile on your face. This was that book for me. *happy sigh*
There is so much to love in this book. It's broken into three sections. The first is the moment the guys met and connected which covers about 24 hours in Munich, while they were both visiting. This section is sexy and fun and while it's obvious that both the guys have issues waiting for them at home, it's a sweet stage...that first connection. For Jase, it's truly the first time in his life that he's allowed himself to be out and proud. Life in Texas and then the military hasn't allowed for that. I loved the vulnerability for Jase in that first connection. Ase is stronger, more confident, and has a sexier edge, but I immediately fell for Jase and his inner-conflict over being bi-sexual. (I'm from Texas and then spent 20 years with my husband in the military and can understand where he's coming from.)
The second section is much harder. It takes place four years later when Ase and Jase cross paths again. While not completely settled and happy with his life, Jase is much more confident in who he is and the choices he makes. Ase is not. Ase in this section made my heart hurt and a lot of that was just from the vagueness of it all. It's obvious that something went bad for him after Munich...he's just not the same guy and hints at that in his inner-dialogue. And as the two get deeper and deeper involved, you can feel the tension ratcheting up because you know it's all about to explode in their faces.
And then is section three which I'm not going to talk too much about because...no spoilers. Just know I spent a lot of this section much like I was when I hit the words THE END...with a smile on my face and tears in my eyes.
I love these two characters together. They have a great flirty chemistry which makes them so much fun to read. They come from completely different backgrounds, but their issues within their family dynamic are very similar. They can each relate to what the other is going through...even when it causes conflict between them. It's part of why I fell in love with both of them...they each need a hug and the other to keep them safe. But at times it was hard to understand those ties to family that kept them there even when all their families did was hurt them. I wanted them to lash out at the people who continued to hurt them all in the name of family...ugh. I don't understand how homophobia can cause a person to hate a person in their family. How? It hurts to read about families like this, but unfortunately this is a very real reality for people and that makes me sad. But I'm getting off-track.
This book...it's good. Extremely readable and entertaining. I loved Ase with his bad-boy vibe, but vulnerable center and then Jase with his Texas drawl, his oh so non-PC reactions, and the fact that he's a good guy...just doesn't have a very good game face. I liked watching them come to grips with exactly who they are and finding a comfortable place within that. The final scene with Jase at the club and his little reveal will keep me smiling for many days to come. Sweet moments...I love books that have them like this.
Another winner from Kade Boehme. I recommend you grab it!