Saturday, June 1, 2013

Denying Yourself by Silvia Violet

Title:  Denying Yourself
Author: Silvia Violet
My Rating: A-

Genre: Paranormal Romance (m/m)
Series: -
Main Characters: Matt and Shane
Release Date: May 2013

Publisher: Dreamspinner Press
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Sexual Intensity: hot

Story Overview:
Matt and Shane both have secrets. Matt never believed he was anything but straight, yet he’s increasingly attracted to his best friend. Shane is comfortable with being gay, but when he discovers he’s part werewolf, he hides that part of himself, fearing Matt’s reaction. Suffocated by his uptight parents and conservative hometown, Shane begs Matt to run away with him.

But starting over doesn’t help. Matt still denies his desires, and Shane abuses alcohol to dampen his wolfish urges. When Matt breaks down and kisses Shane, the pent-up passion proves too much for Shane’s self-control, and his wolf gets free. Horrified, Shane flees—into deeper trouble. Before they can hope to accept each other, Shane and Matt must accept themselves.

My Review:
There's a lot to the book. It covers about six years of the lives of these two friends, from the time that they are 18 years old and leave home. Matt never wanted to leave home, but he didn't want to abandon his troubled best friend. What he doesn't realize though is what Shane is really battling. Shane was adopted and never knew that he was half-shifter, until he suddenly shifts during an argument with his parents. They don't react well to his shifting, so neither does he. He takes off, begging Matt to go with him, but not telling him truly why they are leaving. Matt has his own confusion to deal with. He's being increasingly drawn to Shane. Matt isn't accepting that he's gay though. 

These guys are so young and dealing with some really huge stresses in their lives. Neither one of them handles them particularly well at the beginning of the book and you get to watch them struggle through that both together, and then separately. Shane especially bottoms out in a big way at a certain point in this book and it's difficult to watch and read, but I thought the author handled that all really well. It's not easy to read, but it was very real-feeling and authentic (or it would be if shifters were real....LOL). But regardless of the paranormal aspect of it, the author wrote his rock-bottom moments really authentically. 

I like that both these guys managed to pull their lives back together apart. That doesn't mean that they don't have a ton to work out together, because they definitely do. But they weren't reliant on the other for the strength to get better. That is an amazing scene with Shane when he realizes that he has to do it for himself, not because of his love for Matt. BUT through it all...for both of them, there is never any doubt that they truly love each other, even when there are doubts about whether they will find their hea. 

I thought it was truly a greatly written and emotionally beautiful love story. I really enjoyed it.

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